I’m hoping to be a bit more on-the-ball this week; looking back over last week I had a LOT going on, some of which is directly and indirectly relevant to the work I’m doing here.
Morning Pages
7 out of 7. I agree with the assessment that there is a page and a half truth point - sometimes it happens sooner, sometimes it happens later, but it’s always something I need to talk about with myself. I have, a few times, stopped myself from reaching for the tarot cards while I write them. Tarot has its place in a creative unblocking, but it should be separate from morning pages. Often I find myself getting to the truth of what I need to unleash well before the page and a half mark, and there’s at least twice where my words were literally vibrating on the page. That’s a lot of power I’ve blocked up.
Artist’s Date
Yes, I did my artist’s date, and I’m rather impressed with myself for choosing a concert given my negative feelings about music. It was a very positive experience for me, and it will go a long way with reengaging me with music as a source of enjoyment and not just a magical tool. My experience was wonderful and hit my poetry trigger - when I was in high school, insomnia would cause me to sit up half the night writing poems. Now, it’s much better as it happens when I’m not really trying to sleep. I also need to go out and by the Acoustic Poetry CD, since Szabo won’t use Itunes.
Synchronicity
Yes, plenty, especially during that concert where the old sorceror literally played the rain. There were magical things going on too - I had some energetic weirdness this week that I had to seek help on - but ultimately just a series of small things, details I probably missed.
Recovery
I went in to this whole process not really thinking I was blocked, but I’m realizing that yes, not only was I blocked creatively, that creativity had me blocked on an energetic/magical level too. This past week the unblocking process awoke/unleashed a few unpleasant things, but ultimately, this is still very good for me. I’m working through things I have let sit in my psyche too long - I’m decluttering my inner self the way I’ve spent so much time decluttering my home. There are a lot of things I do right for myself on the surface, but I need to go deeper because I do a lot of things wrong, too, but not out of the “laziness” that I usually attribute it to. I am not a lazy person, and I have trouble with being fearful when I have no more to fear than anyone else in my position. I do believe that there are individuals who would like me to continue to be blocked, and who benefit from the absence of my creativity in the world though I’m not sure how, and in the process of removing my own blocks I am removing blocks placed there by others. The Artist’s Way is a spiritual path, and it’s about combining my will with my god’s.
